I had to stop everything to write after reading this quote:
"The best is always yet to be with God. Everything you have ever dreamed or longed for, will be." -Oswald Chambers
Those 19 words sum me up. Past, present, and future. In the past, I dreamed of what my career and life would look like, in the present I long for someone to share life with, and now know in the future it all will be WITH God.
Next to having John 3:16 memorized, I've always known Phil. 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." There is even a song that goes something like "and with God all things are possible..." something about soaring on wings like eagles. ANYWAY, it wasn't until tonight, until ", will be." that I really got it. Everything that I've ever needed, thought I needed, stressed about, complained about, late night texted about, been lied to in movies about, WILL BE as long as (here's the key point) I am WITH God.
Such power in 19 words. When I was 19 I was in the midst of tragedy, thinking about past memories of those gone, trying to deal with the present, and not even wanting to think or know about the future. But it was through prayer, a silent packed car ride of 6 to the airport, and the love of a community that yanked me back into the present each day. God was with and will always be with me. I don't have to worry about all my "will be's" as long as I'm "with He."
You are an inspiration to me and I love you so much! I am really sorry for everything, I live with the guilt and pain everyday. You are a strong person and God has a plan for you.
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